Those apartment houses are for rent again but I can't afford them

this morning my mom really made me cry. she basically said that I need to either get a job, go back to school or i might get kicked out because I'm spending too much time in my room "wasting away".

she also said that the reason I didn't get a cake was because of my attitude. wouldn't you get pissed off if someone was telling you every day you aren't doing anything with your life and you need to find a job and generally making you feel like crap?

I'd go back to school for my Bachelor's degree in a heartbeat if the schools weren't cutting classes, raising the cost of tuition and loans weren't being cut. And work, I'm looking for work every day. Before I do my fun stuff, I look at the job alerts I've gotten over night, send out resumes and send out follow up e-mails from resumes I sent the previous week and nothing. I haven't found anything.

I know that if I really speak my mind about the getting kicked out part, I really might get kicked out.

then like 30 mins ago, my dad tells me that my mom has something for me. and I was like wtf?! then I thought I really don't want to cry again if she's going to lecture me or something, but i call her at work and she tells me that the Bally's Total Fitness across the street has some special or something going on for like $20/month (I checked online and the cheapest they have is $25/month for 1 club only or $30/month for national access) and if I wanted to do that she'd pay for it.

anyone need a secretary

sitting on my ass, do nothing and get paid isn't as fun as it sounds. That's all I do when I come here. Every Friday when I come into work that's what I do.

I actually DO have work that I'm supposed to do, but my "boss" has another "job" and when that "job" gets busy, I get screwed. My "work" depends on her getting information to me. Every Friday between 930 and 1030 am I e-mail Colleen the information she needs to send me the information I need. Basically, the title of Sunday's sermon. All she has to do is pick out TWO SONGS to go with the sermon! I could easily do this myself, but I never know if she has the songs picked out a head of time (a lot of times the songs don't match the sermon). I hate looking through the Bible and looking through the hymnal trying to find songs that match the sermon because a lot of times there isn't anything to match the Sermon so I have to find 2 that kind of match. It's work that, as far as I know, isn't in my job description. So anyways, I leave home, take the bus, get something to eat and go on to work. That's like 2-3 hrs. Plenty of time to find 2 songs. She's been doing this for the 8 yrs that I've been secretary, it's not like it's a new job for her. Then I have to e-mail her a reminder, after waiting an additional hour and still probably end up waiting another 30-45 mins.

This also happens when it comes time to do the monthly Love Notes. It's only 1 time a month and I'm freaking waiting and the stuff never goes out on the 1st of the month like I want it to.

Today was no different. I e-mailed her at 1030, which is a bit later than I usually do, I didn't end up leaving home until 1130 and I didn't get to the office until 1 something. Still 3 hrs since I e-mailed her. about 20 mins ago (230 pm), I sent her a reminder e-mail and also said that we didn't have the words to one of the monthly praise songs.

so yeah, here I am waiting. and tired. and hot. and pissed off.

edit got a reply back from Colleen. "That Praise Book is old. I have the words, but they might be at home." tell me something I don't know! I've been using and adding to it for 8 years! Still don't have the 2 hymns I need! and the fact that the words "might be at home" doesn't help either of us. You being at work and me wanting to leave RIGHT NOW!

what an eventful day

Not just for me, but for my sister. This morning she was getting ready for work & to take the kids to school when she suddeny felt dizzy. The room was spinning and every time she opened her eyes, she said it felt like the room was spinning faster. On top of that she had horribly painful cramps.

Marlin called 911 and I believe Jasmine called here. around 6 am or so my mom wakes me up to tell me all this and that they were going to her house and my dad was going to take Marlin  & Jasmine to school and my mom was going to go to the hospital to be with my sister.

Around  730 am my mom calls me to tell me to call directory assistance to get my sister's job's number and then to call and tell them she wasn't going to be in today. I did that and my mom came to get me so I could go with her to the hospital, which btw, my sister lives in LA and the hospital is all the way over by us in Bellflower. That's quite a ways to go.

At the hospital, my sister had a blood sample, urine sample and a CAT or CT scan (I can't remember which it was). The results of the scan showed nothing - except that she had a brain lol the joke the technician told her. Her potassium levels were low and she had high blood pressure medication she hadn't taken yet or hadn't taken in a few days? I'm not clear on that part. The doctor told her she had vertigo and gave her medication for that as well as something to bring her potassium levels back up. Then she was released.

Right now, I believe she's sleeping on the sofa. When the kids get out of school, my dad will be taking them, and my sister home. I don't know what the plan for tomorrow is as far as my sister going to work and how the kids are going to get to school.

I told my sister not to worry about giving me money for the cruise I may or may not go on. She is 3 or 4 months behind on paying the registration for her car and her insurance is going to be due soon. She gets paid on the 21st and I rather her get her car stuff taken care of than to have to deal with it being impounded for no registration/insurance if she were to get pulled over.

It's been about 4 hrs since I've eaten. I'm hungry, but not really. I crave fatty greasy foods and I don't need that...but I so want it!

Happy birthday to me?

while I'm thankful for the gifts and wishes I got, today wasn't anything special. I didn't get any kind of birthday meal and if i wanted anything special, i would have to use the money i got. didn't go anywhere and my sister gave me a coupon for a free scoop of ice cream...THAT I PRINTED OUT TO BEGIN WITH! she did however say that when she gets paid on the 20th, she'd give me money to go towards a cruise i want to go on that i may not be able to go on after all

and the frosting on the invisible cake, i had to clean the kitchen.

yeah. happy birthday to me! maybe I should have gone out with pushy clingy guy from last week!

thanks to the 30 or 40 something ppl who wished me a happy birthday on FB and Twitter and here?

there are like 3 hrs & 12 mins left to my birthday. we'll see if it gets better

last Wednesday we get a flier in the mail from the plumbers the apartment managers/owners use stating that water was going to be off for 4 days - Thursday & Friday Sept 3 & 4 and Monday & Tuesday Sept 7 & 8 from 9 am to 4 pm.

The water was indeed off Thursday and Friday, but it's 4 pm on Monday and I've been using the water all day for various things - including going to the bathroom and the water hasn't been off.

I think when the fliers were made, they didn't realize Monday was a holiday...or they finished their work. I'll have to see tomorrow if the water is shut off when I wake up.

pushy clingy man is pushy clingy

I thought I was going to have a date (my FIRST ONE in 3 years!) this weekend or next weekend, but the guy was pushing exclusive dating too much. Like from 1st date on we'd only date each other with the idea of it becoming a relationship.

I'm sorry, that doesn't work for me. I don't get asked on dates (at all really) and I don't want to be exclusive with someone I'll be meeting for the first time. and this guy's "old fashion gentleman" ways was being too pushy for me.

fine, whatever. I took him off my messenger friends list, removed his number from my phone, deleted all e-mails to and from him and deleted his e-mail from my address book

what REALLY creeped me out was that he showed my pictures to people he worked with and told them we were working on a relationship and he said they said we'd make a cute couple.

*SHUDDERS* to think, I was going to send my resume to him so he could forward it to the human resources department of the company he works for...he'd have access to my home address and phone number.

guess i won't be going out next week for my birthday after all. oh well.

when do I get my toilet back?!

the water in the apartment building (6 units) for 7 1/2 hrs. Tomorrow (Friday) will be the same, as will next Monday and Tuesday.

I guess the property owners are finally getting around to replacing the 20+ yr old pipes! At least I HOPE that's what's being done!

lack of water hasn't been too bad, but around hour 5 I really had to use it. I put the thought out of my mind until the slightest movement sent me running to the bathroom.

Friday will be better. I'll be at work for all or a majority of the time the water is to be off. I don't know what I'll be doing next Monday & Tuesday though.

edit 1 the water came back on about 5 pm, but I got sidetracked talking with S and I never posted this. oops
edit 2 MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 6 DAYS!!!!!!