I’m just going to keep my mouth shut

Tuesday I found out that my brother didn't make his promotion in the U.S. Air Force. He's been in for 24 yrs and September 1 is his last day.

he knew it was coming, but I think he was hoping to continue on in the Air Force. But for now he's finishing up his bachelor's degree while looking for work in Europe (he and his wife want to live & raise their daughters there). So he's state side until he finishes up his degree.

Since time is “running out” on how long my brother and his family are going to be in the States, I came up with a pretty good family vacation idea and then my dad was like "Lizet is good with spending other people's money." I try to do get us to something as a family and my idea gets crapped on before it's even heard. well forget I even said anything.

So what was my idea? I thought that next summer the 6 of us out here (my sister, her kids, me and my parents) could go to Florida for a couple of weeks. His house has a pretty decent backyard & pool...we could "camp" back there, go to the beach...do SOMETHING as a family because the last time we did that, Marta & Daniela were like 18 months old and now they're 5 years old.

Part of me wants to suggest it to my brother and sister (my mom was already for the idea) and see what they say and my dad could stay here for all I care.

My other idea was a 12 day family Hawaiian cruise (my sister said she was saving her money to go to Hawaii with Marlin & Jasmine), but that would have been way more expensive. Plus the only Hawaiian cruises were September of this year, April & December of next year and then April 2012, and the kids would be in school during those times.

bad habits

I have a bad habit of circling dates in/on a calendar but making no note WHY.

Like August 28. What's going on that day? There’s a baseball game I’d like to go to, but if I already have plans that day, then obviously, I can’t go.

Oh wait! That would have been the date of an end of summer party at my church but plans have changed, so barring anything else needed to be held that day, baseball is on!

I can’t possibly be the only one with a bad habit like that.

So you want to be a Notary Public

On August 18, 2010 I will be attending a seminar on becoming a Notary Public. That same day, I will take a 2 hour test (and hopefully pass) so that I can be one step closer to being a Notary Public. If you live in California and would like more information, click here:



Yup, I registered and paid for the seminar that’s to take place on the date mentioned above. After the seminar, I take the test. After the test, I get the results...15 days to a month later! Passing is a 70.

Either I’ll obsess about those 15 days to 30 days or I’ll be so busy with school stuff that I’ll forget until someone asks me or I get the pass (or fail, though I hope not) letter in the mail. The end of September I should know one way or the other. Should I not pass, I can test again. I hope I doesn’t come to that though.

Several Things

• I want to get back into photography. I’d prefer to be able to develop my own film...and that it’s black & white photography, but really, any kind of photography will do. This means I need to get a decent (aka cheap) camera. I am a beginner after all.
• I want to get into bike riding. I have my eye on a few beach cruiser bikes, so now it’s a matter of actually going and buying the right one. My parents keep saying to look at the Salvation Army or thrift store, but honestly, I want something I know no one has used because there’s no telling what kind of condition it’s in.
• I want to travel. There’s so many places I want to go and not only is there no one who can really go with me, but I can’t decide where I want to go to first.
• And *gasp* I’m actually thinking about going back to working towards being a flight attendant (thanks in part to a tweet done by Meredith). Oh I’m still going to get my Paralegal certificate/degree and I’m still going to do the Notary Public thing too. Gosh, I’m turning into my dad with all this stuff I’m doing/want to do!

There’s more things, but these are just the things going on in my head at the moment.

How’s this for timing?!

I need to make an appointment to go to the dentist so I log into one of my e-mail accounts to get my dentist’s number and there’s an e-mail from the dentist office. They were reminding me it’s time for a cleaning and left the number to make an appointment. However what isn’t in the e-mail is the address so I look them up to get the address and I’m looking around the site, clicking on different links and click on employment. I usually do that with different websites I go to so I can see what jobs they’re hiring for. Well my dental office is hiring for receptionist. I had applied to this position once before but for some reason I didn’t hear back from them. I pulled up my resume to make sure everything is in place and sent it off.

On the Notary Public front...I found a date that’s the earliest can test. August 18th is a seminar and testing from 830 am to 530 pm with the usual breaks for a snack and lunch. I checked the area of where it’s going to be held, and there’s quite a few places I can choose from and they aren’t overly expensive either.

My high school reunion is quickly approaching on July 31st and found the “dress code” for the event. cocktail attire. I don’t know if what I recently purchased is cocktail attire, but I can’t buy anymore clothes.

My 28th birthday is in 1 month 3 weeks and 5 days. Of course there’s a ton that I want to do. I mean, I change my mind like every freaking week! First I want to have a bowling party, then I want to go to Disneyland, then I want to go to a concert on Florida to see my friend Marissa, my brother, sister in law and the girls, I want to go to San Francisco...those are what I can remember. Oh and I want to go to to a baseball game (2 if I can swing it financially)! Now my mom has said she’d pay for half of my ticket to Florida (if I or my brother pay the other half), but since I can’t find any concerts I want to go to around my birthday, I’m thinking I rather go to San Francisco or to some (more) baseball games.

Hollywood Video by me is having a closing/going out of business sale. 30-80% of a lot of the DVDs and games...and they’re also selling the fixtures. I went in hoping they’d have The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe as well as Prince Caspian, but no such luck. I bet they went months/weeks ago! But I managed to get Watchmen for $4.99 (originally $14.99) and The International for $4.99 (also originally $14.99). There were TONS of horror movies. I didn’t take the time to look through them, but I know my mom would spend a lot of time looking through them. Since they have no final closing date, I might go back and take a look at the tv shows they still have. I saw some 24 DVDs and I need to get seasons 1-6 and season 8. On a whole, there wasn’t much to choose from and probably won’t be the next time I decide to go...if they’re still open.

Today I attempted to give Miss Marple a bath. She has fleas and hasn’t had them since she was a kitten and she’s about 4 years old now. I went to the store to see if they have Frontline Plus, but I think I can only get that from my vet. So I did the next best thing - a bath. I was only concerned with her neck and stomach as that’s where she has them. I started with her neck and that was ok. then I put her on her back and did her stomach. again, that was ok. Now the hard part...rinsing her off! I wasn’t able to get a really good lather and I didn’t want to get all scratched up so I put her in the tub and turned on the water. Mean thing to do, but she lathered up and rinsed herself off and then I towel dried her and let her go to groom herself. After about 10 mins or so, I combed/brushed her out. I hope what I was able to shampoo helps with the fleas some. Oh and I got only 1 tiny cut/scratch as she was trying to get out of the tub. Not bad at all.

who to call friend

Its been sorted out, but I don’t know who to call friend anymore. I’m beginning to get what people on the verge feel like, because I feel like that right now.

The people I want to talk to are probably sleep or off doing their own thing and even if they weren’t, what guarantee is there that they’d be there for me?

This is what happens when I let someone get close? I don’t want that then.

There’s now a dialogue going on, but honestly, I just want it to be done with. I don’t think there’s being friends with this person again. They scared me. I never thought it was this person doing all that was done. I didn’t know they had that much of a problem because they never flat out told me. I’m sorry, I can’t read cryptic stuff. I can’t read between the lines to figure out that you’re talking about me

Its almost 4 am and I’m still awake. I should have been asleep 4 hours ago, but this is going on and I’m on the verge because I don’t know who my friends are anymore.

Clarity

I think that’s a song by John Mayer. But it’s also something that’s happening to me? I don’t know how to phrase that correctly, but it’s happening - or at least I think it is.

Things have been going on. Then they die out. Then it pops back up in different forms and makes me wonder and doubt what I came to realize before.

I'm (still) trying to weed out the trolls and drama llamas from my (internet) life without having to start over fresh.

Just when I think I've gotten rid of the people who I thought were causing problems, more pop up...or the same ones who were cleverly hidden reappear.

With all the stuff they're saying about me that's so bad, I don't get why they just don't remove me and be done with it instead of playing whatever game they're playing, but disguising it as "helping" me.

I just keep thinking about that saying, “you know what happens when you assume? You make an ass out of you and me.” But really, the person doing the assuming is the one with pie on their face, so to speak.

I’m going to keep on assuming and let you do what you have to do and I’ll go from there.

Maybe the title of this should have been assumptions.