don't look back

I don't get my mom. She'll go out and participate in stuff with my sister or her (my mom) friends but when I ask her to do stuff that really interests me she declines.

It's not like I'm asking her to swim with sharks or go sky diving. Just go see what I spend so much time doing rather than looking at the pictures after the event.

I've brought up how it hurts me (I don't remember my exact words) that she doesn't want to see what I'm doing (yet she interjects herself into almost every other part of my life) and asked her why and she said she just doesn't feel like it.

Tonight for example, is a revival at my sister's church. My sister called her up a few hours ago and asked if she wanted to go and she didn't hesitate in saying she'd go. Well I invite her to the same kind of event, but with family friends and I get "oh, not this time. I'm too tired" or some other kind of excuse along those lines.

This is yet another example I will remind my parents of when I move out and don't want them to be involved in my life.

cleaning = mess

I've been cleaning my room off and on for the last 5 hours and all I have to show for it is a whole bunch of mess. lol But I managed to get 3 boxes of stuff to take to storage tomorrow and toss out 2 garbage bags of crap.

Also in cleaning, I found like 6 plastic bags of shoes (mostly flip flops). I swear I don't have a shoe/flip flop addiction! If my mom asks me "do you like these?" and I say yes...and she buys them, I'm not going to turn them down lol I have 3 pair of shoes I have yet to wear that she's bought me (they're odd colors and I don't have anything to match them yet.

also found bag after bag after bag (that's 3 bags) of crocheted stuff my mom's made for me in the last 4 years.

This is why I need my own place! I need to have a room AND closet devoted to shoes, clothes and crocheted things!

12 days you say

I got a letter from my guy. didn't make up for not hearing from him for nearly 12 days. made it clear to him (in letter back) that if he didn't put more effort out I wasn't going to continue giving of myself. He was writing me every 12 days or so, and in that time I'd written and sent 4 letters! We'll see how long it takes to get a response. Hopefully not another 12 days!

I've been having some really weird dreams about earthquakes. Ever since the one on Easter. I've been having them almost every night. They're so real sometimes that I wake up because I think there's really one. and I swear if I lay still enough, I feel the earth moving. Yeah, I have problems.

Talked to my mom about the Notary Public thing. I already know that both my parents think it's something I should do, and I'm fairly certain that I'll go through the process as well, it's just figuring out my budget so that I can pay for it is harder than I thought it'd be. I can juggle my budget around awesome like to traveling or shopping, but for this, it's hard. Maybe this is a sign that I need to wait some more before going through with it.

I want to live here if I don’t move

If I could, I'd totally buy this house!

Sadly, to afford the nearly $1700 mortgage payment (and that’s from putting $16000 down!), I’d have to make roughly $3400 a month. The other half would go towards bills, and more than likely car & insurance.

*sighs*

Also, if I had a house like that, I’d totally have to buy new furniture lol and since its 3 rooms, I could have an office and guest room. That’s cool!

In other news, Thursday or Friday I looked up what it would take to become a Notary Public. It doesn’t seem like much work. There’s like 7 steps and in 8 months to a year you’ll become official.

I need to do more research on it, but it looks like it might be a decent thing to do to make addition money. From the salary searches I did, it looks like they’re paid decently.

Like I said, more research (and possibly saving for the $200 in fees) is needed before I make a final decision.

And we're off!

And we're off! My 10 year high school reunion is in 16 weeks and I want to look even better than I do now (positive thinking people! it goes a long way)!

My ultimate goal is to lose 100 lbs but I KNOW I'm not going to do that in 16 weeks, but it's still my ultimate goal.

Join me as I get my butt in shape!
Week 01

tattoos

I have 5 tattoos with plans of getting more. Originally when I thought about getting tattoos, I wanted them to represent the fandoms I belonged to, but then it would take too much explaining to others what they meant. I still plan on getting those tattoos, but it's turning out they have more than the meanings I originally thought so it's all good.

First tattoo I go, I was 19. It's Hollywood in script on my outer right ankle. Originally it was for a member of a boyband I like, but then I took a theater class in college and the instructor said he could very easily see me working in Hollywood because I was at ease with being on stage/in front of the camera.

Second tattoo I got was a couple years after that. I was around 21. This tattoo is the astrological sign for Leo. Like the first, it was originally for a member of a boyband, but it was easier to say it was for my nephew who is also a Leo.

Third/fourth tattoos I got were a serious whim. I was 23, it was rainy, my parents were away for a couple days, and I may or may not have ditched some classes to get them. I took a train to the swapmeet, walked around and bam! there was a tattoo place...and I just happened to have the money so I got them. I wanted to get them, but they weren't as planned out as my others. They are the Chinese symbols for Hope and Faith. I pretty much liked how they looked were my reasons for getting them. I only wish I would have gotten them in a different location than on both my arms.

Fifth tattoo I got was a couple years later (see a trend? every couple years I get a tattoo lol). So this means I was 25. We had just experienced an earthquake on this day and I wanted to do something just as unexpected. I called up a friend and she took me to get it done. This tattoo is the astrological sign for Virgo. It has no connection to a boyband. It is actually the sign for my sister in law, niece and myself.

my boy is drawing up my next tattoos (if he hasn't forgotten that is). They are 4 hearts, each containing the initials of my grandparents. The other one he's drawing I won't get put on me until I get married as it will be my last name (maiden if you will) in flames.

I still have to complete the boyband series tattoos, and in a way, this means completing the zodiac lol I'm 27 now so I need to hurry up and get my next tattoo(s) to keep with the every 2 year trend. I turn 28 in about 5 months.

school...you confuse me

I don't get it! every other assignment I turn in gets send back asking me to redo it. I guess it's good that I have the chance to get the full points, but I don't get what I'm doing wrong.

I've had this particular instructor for 3 classes, including the one I'm currently in, and in each of the 3 classes I've had at least 1 assignment returned to be saying to redo it for full credit. In my current class, I'm only 5 days in and have already had 2 returned to redo for full credit.

I get a praise and then a redo it for full credit. Blah